Embracing the digital age....

My dear, sweet, funny, handful-of-a-boy created the name for this blog without even knowing it. When he falls down or slips under the water in the bathtub (well, actually when almost anything happens that scares him) he says this. Sometimes several times, "I okay, I okay, I okay". I am not quite certain if he is reassuring himself or me, but I like it. In light of the events since January 5, I have both adopted and adapted it for my own as "I am going to be okay".

I hope this format doesn't feel impersonal to you. It doesn't to me as I am only sharing it with invited friends and family. The reason for this? I have been the fortunate recipient of so very many kind emails. However, to reply individually to them feels like a daunting task right now. So, this feels like a good way to keep people posted on the ups and downs of my life right now.

As I mentioned, I can say honestly that I am going to be okay. Does this feel like the biggest load of shit ever? Yes. Do I find it completely horrendous that 1 person can make a decision that affects the lives of many, many people? Yes. Do I cry? Yes. Do I still laugh and carry on with my day-to-day? Yes. The reason that I can and do carry on are 1.) a terrific little boy and 2.) the amazing people who care for and support me...family, friends, colleagues, church, pastor, neighbors, therapist....

Now for a few specifics (oh, c'mon, I know you're wondering :). Tim did in fact file for a divorce and I received the papers yesterday. Indiana is a no fault divorce state, which in short means that if one person wants a divorce, there is nothing the other person can do. A divorce will be granted. Nice, huh?

I know this post is ending abruptly, but I must grab a few groceries before I pick up Crosby. We are out of orange juice and I tried to pass off tomato juice. That was probably kind of mean, but hey, I'm trying to get more veggies in his diet! He got this horrible look on his face, his eyes watered, and he sputtered "I don't yike dis!".